| im somewhat confused...am i not mature enough? are my thoughts too stubborn? its hard to change a person but should we give up just because we think it's hard or fight our way through? what is moving on forward??...is it being able to tolerate each other and be more optimistic or is it being able to amend the stuff that isnt right? am i foreseeing something recently? i hope im just thinking too much... |
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| life really is a strange thing. what is the meaning of life anyways?
my grandpa went into a coma recently, all members of our family tried to help him. he is...better now...by i dont know what definition. this will be the first lesson i learn before i step into the hospital. seeing people die in the hospital will be as often as i subscribe medication for my patients. Living and dying. two of the extremes, but what if things arent as black and white as they are for my grandpa?? he has dementia...barely speak of what he wants. can only do small actions when someone tells him to, not to mention recognizing people's faces. When life becomes so basic, you only have desires of hunger, thirst, and pain sensation...what is it that life demands from us and what is it that we as family members or doctors could do...i really dont know. went to see him this weekend, and as i look into his eyes...it was blank, but from my eyes i remember the things he has taught me, the things he once told me...it all didnt seem long ago... these are unanswered questions and maybe unabled questions. i guess the lesson here is really treasure what we have, n those around us. and all i want now, is to have my grandpa recover. love u grandpa! |
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| mothers day 2007  grandma in the middle and uncles and aunts around
  
enough said :) |
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| THE FOUR STAGES OF LIFE 
haha very true...but seems lke we're at the third stage already... hope da 4th stage wont arrive as fast |
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